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11:14 p.m. - 2008-06-22 Right, where do I start with this one? Let's go back to when I was a child. I'm 7, and we take a family holiday which we all enjoy. We liked it so much, we went back to the same hotel for the following 8 years. It was great fun, because the same families went year after year too, and at the same time of year, so it was always like a big reunion. There was a girl there, my age, who I fancied since I saw her the first time we met, right up until we stopped going when I was about 15. Fast forward to 2007, and Facebook has arrived on the scene. I look her up, there she is, we become friends, and more importantly, it turns out we work in the same area. We meet for drinks a couple of times, and sometimes when she's out with her friends and is drunk she texts me to say how much she likes me. The thing is, I like this girl. I really, really, like this girl. I have done since I was 7 for Pete's sake. Those who know me in real life will know that I am the worst texter-backer ever. Like, you text me Monday asking if I want to do something Tuesday, and I'll reply Friday with a "sounds gr8!" or something. I just don't check my phone, simple as that. Obviously this gets to her, and I have tried to explain. So anyway, we meet up a few times for some drinks after work, and I invite her to stay round my house. She may have thought sweet love was on the cards but, unfortunately, I've changed my ways now. It was just so she could come out with me for more than an hour. I no longer go around sleeping with anything that bats an eyelid at me. Now, I would prefer to have a real relationship with somebody before committing to anything sexual. This explains why my sex life is now non-existent. But I digress. I was pretty ill when she came over, so we went out for a bit, came back, watched a DVD, and slept in different beds. We meet up again afterwards, and then she invites me to her place to stay over. Her flat mate's away on holiday. The thing is, we haven't even held hands, let alone kissed or made out etc., so there's no way I'm going to dive into bed with her. I arrive, with just the clothes I'm wearing. Yep, I forgot my evening clothes, my toothbrush, my bathroom supplies, everything. Let's not forget that I am a total scatterbrain when it comes to everything. I didn't think it went down too well. She cooked me a really nice dinner, which I could only eat half of because I was so nervous. We then went out with her friends, went back to her place, slept in the same bed, but did nothing. I wake up, say goodbye, and go home. There's a drought on the text message front. I guess she's annoyed at me for not instigating anything. I don't text her because I don't want to rock the boat and I'm scared of making things worse. A couple of weeks pass by, and she then she texts me saying she's driving around where I work and would I like to meet. As I work for a big corporation, personal mobile phones are "not permitted during working hours" - I saw her message when I finished at about 5:30. I text back saying I was sorry, and was she still around, and the reply I got was "No". That was it, just "no". No kiss, no sad face, no happy face. Just a "no". Obviously, she was pissed. I was majorly upset that I blew things with her, but didn't want to reply because I think I might have said something I would later regret. Just now, like, one minute ago, I get a text - really nice and long, asking how I am, what have I been up to, etc., and it ends with "did I read right on Facebook you have a young lady? x" I don't, as it goes, but one of my friends wrote "your girlfriend is on Facebook" on my wall, referring to this nutcase at work, but that's another entry in itself. So, the thing I need to know is... what the hell am I supposed to do? Does she like me? Is she sussing things out? Was I an idiot? Girls, please, help me out. I don't understand how you work. :( 
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